A Hint Of Weirdness

 
When first we meet Chris Kelley, our narrator is in reflective mood, looking back at the strangeness of an ordinary-seeming day:

It's odd. Strange. I just don't understand it. How can Jean be so much like my aunt in her clever little put-downs? The same expression on her face; the same sarcastic tone of voice; exactly the same words: "Yes, dear. Very nice, dear." The same old stuff, all over again... Could almost believe they're the same person... or clones of each other, at least... Weird... almost enough to make me believe in reincarnation, or something like it...

And Peter: he's exactly like uncle George was, all those years ago - even looks like him, for heaven's sake! Thinks he's in control of everything, thinks he's the one who's in charge: but he's absolutely under her thumb, and she's hurting him a lot. How he and Jean can live together - how they can stand each other! - I just don't know. Why does she do it to him? Why can't he see it? That's weird, too...

Damn! Forgot to mail those papers for Mary again - she'll be livid. Again. I always keep promising to do things for her, trying to keep her happy, and I always keep forgetting. And she's always furious with me the next day. Don't know why I keep not doing what she wants - I don't choose to do it to her, after all... do I? And she's so rude to me - always blaming me for messing up her folders and so on, when I haven't been anywhere near them. Blames me for everything, that woman. She's crazy. Drives me crazy... now I'm angry about it - angry about her. Damn!

And I'm just as fed up with Charlie. Blames me for losing that client, when he knows damn well that it's all his fault. Why do I always get the blame for other people's blunders? Charlie screws up all the time, and blames everyone else for it; but he's always so damn smug and patronising whenever he finds I've made even the smallest mistake. He's as bad as Mary - or Andrew, for that matter.

Oh Gawd. Andrew. Just wish he'd stop trying to be so nice to everyone - the creep! A bit of creep in other senses, too... We all know he's meant to be prying into our work - it's his job - but no-one likes it: and his endless attempts to be 'nice' just make it worse. When David did that job, he genuinely was nice about it; but with Andrew it all seems so false, so faked-up - it just doesn't ring true. And it's weird how he's the only one who can't see that it just doesn't work - and wonders why nobody trusts him.

And Kaye said that Nicky was through the office again today. Just when I was out, of course. Again. Every time. And every time I get to go to their office, Nicky's out on emergency, or stuck with a client - or stuck in yet another meeting, poor thing! Why does that always happen? Why do we never get a chance to meet again? Life's just not being fair... I really fancy Nicky - how long ago was it we last met? two years ago? three? Gawd... Be good to have a chance to talk, to get together again; I do think Nicky fancies me too, but it'd be nice to have any chance to know! Can just see the headline now: "star-crossed lovers fated never to meet" - hah! Weird...

All these people: so many hassles, and I just don't seem to have any choice in what to do about them. It's weird... it's all weird... everything's weird... Seem to use that word a lot... 'weird' itself is pretty weird, come to think of it...

But Tom says that 'weird' is a noun, not an adjective: "it's like a quirk of fate", he says, "but it's not an attribute of something, it's an event - a kind of weaving-together of choice and chance". "There's always a choice, there's always a twist", he says; "sometimes we can't see the choices we do have because they're hidden in the twists, hidden in the weavings of the weird". He's weird... sounds like he's twisted! Oh... don't know, though... maybe he's got a point there... looking back at today's stuff, it does seem a bit like that. Might be worth looking at a bit more closely in that way... might be weird, but it might make a bit more sense. Let's see what happens!